You pick me up when I fall down
I praise Your name, thank you for your grace
then go my own way
You call me back
I keep walking, ignoring you
You call and keep calling
I block you out, I can do it myself
I stumble and fall
Now I hear Your call again
I don't answer, too proud... too proud
I get up, keep going until I fall again
I can't get up this time,
I wallow in despair
You pick me up
wrap me in Your love
You picked me up when i fell down
I praise Your name, thank you for your grace
Will i go my own way?
Will i Keep this song repeating
Or will I follow Your way
and sing a new song?
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Shopping Sucks....
So, today I attempted to do my Christmas shopping for my family. after spending 20 minutes trying to find the right store for one of the gifts I was going to get, I found they didn't have what I was going to get. So I went to another store and found the right thing... then I stood in a line of 6 people for 12 minutes until I purchased the item. 1 down... 4 to go... so... I went home. I don't like crowds, and I don't like shopping, especially when I don't know exactly what I'm getting and exactly where I'm going to get it from.
So... in conclusion... I'll either order the other gifts online, or write a note to Santa to have some elves deliver the gifts, or have a better plan of what i'm getting and from where.
BYE
So... in conclusion... I'll either order the other gifts online, or write a note to Santa to have some elves deliver the gifts, or have a better plan of what i'm getting and from where.
BYE
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Stuck in a Rut
Today I feel like i'm stuck. I want to move forward, and I know I should, but i'm unable to. I make some forward progress, but its like the mud is super sticky and rubbery, and yanks me back if I stop intentionally moving forward. It's rather frusterating, because I get far far far far forward, then feel that maybe I can relax a bit (or I get tired) and VwaZingSNAP! I'm back in the rut... Maybe its time to change the tires...
Thursday, November 18, 2010
The Triple Update! 1 2 3
1. "Anatomy-possible-crush-on-me" has been uneventful and there are no developments there.
2. I can't recall what the second thing was....
3. Roommate R and I had a heart-to-heart and we came to an agreement. Should be positive for the future.. haven't had the next roommate meeting to officially start project "House Chores", but i've discussed it with two of the three roommates and both agree that it is a good idea. So hopefully that'll go well.
4. I'm being super duper slacker this week, doing almost no studying, initially it started as a reward for being done all my exams, but now i'm just becoming a slacker :-p . So I haven't done much of anything yet. But i'm pumped for this weekend cause i'm visiting my winkler cousins :-)
5. I sooooooo want finals to be over already :-)
6. This has become a double triple update!!!
7. Plus one!
8. I'm kind of tired... and super lazy!!!
9. SNORE!
2. I can't recall what the second thing was....
3. Roommate R and I had a heart-to-heart and we came to an agreement. Should be positive for the future.. haven't had the next roommate meeting to officially start project "House Chores", but i've discussed it with two of the three roommates and both agree that it is a good idea. So hopefully that'll go well.
4. I'm being super duper slacker this week, doing almost no studying, initially it started as a reward for being done all my exams, but now i'm just becoming a slacker :-p . So I haven't done much of anything yet. But i'm pumped for this weekend cause i'm visiting my winkler cousins :-)
5. I sooooooo want finals to be over already :-)
6. This has become a double triple update!!!
7. Plus one!
8. I'm kind of tired... and super lazy!!!
9. SNORE!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Roommate Rant
I was once friends with one of my roommates... Now I don't consider him more than a roommate. He has proven himself to be unreliable, he has made no attempt to indicate he cares at all about the state of the house, or even the "rules" we've made for ourselves.
The kicker has been the last week and a half. Basically he was "house sitting" for the entire week last week, not a big deal, except he left a huge stack of dishes. Now this in itself isn't a huge deal... I mean, I can definitely see myself forgetting about doing dishes before leaving for a week. The problem starts when he gets back to our house on Saturday. To my knowledge he was home for 2 or 3 hours before leaving again, and in that time did nothing but play videogames and check his facebook.
SUNDAY
When I got back to the city on sunday and found his stack of dishes still lying there, I texted him (slightly rudely) "So why didn't you do your dishes last night?" To which he replied... and oh do his replies always fuel my anger... here's his reply; "Why didn't YOU do the dishes?". This is his typical response when it comes to things concerning keeping the house clean, a sarcastic response and then out of mind. But I wasn't done yet. I realized, after calming myself down and praying for patience (i need a lot of that with this roommate), that the way i worded my inital contact to him would warrant that kind of response. So I followed it up with this ; "Look dude, you know what i was getting at with that text, right? I'm sorry if it came off mean or something, but I think you can see where i'm coming from, its been more than a week.". There was no response to this text. He didn't come home sunday night.
MONDAY
When I get home from school on monday, guess who I see sitting at the tv just playing videogames, (he doesn't work on monday, so presumably had been there for at least 2 or more hours since his girlfriend likely works mondays). We talk for a little bit about nothing important, a simple hey hows it going etc., I refuse to remind him about the dishes. (For a while i would remind him of the things he had to do that he hadn't yet; dishes, cleaning the bathroom. To which he would respond sarcastically and even angrily, then he would rebel and leave it till the next day.) So i went to my room, hoping that sometime during the evening he would take the time to wash the dishes. Alas, I knew my hopes were for nothing when a friend of his came over, so i put my hopes on tuesday.
TUESDAY
Now i knew i would be leaving for Steinbach Tuesday right after school, so I put my hopes on tuesday night that somehow someway he might find the time to do his dishes, so when I came home the dishes would be done and I could stop fretting about it. So tuesday evening was absolutely awesome! The Peace concert rocked my socks off, and then hanging out at dairy queen was excellent! But alas, I decided not to drive back to winnipeg tuesday night and would have to wait until wednesday morning to learn the fate of those dirty dishes.
WEDNESDAY
I got up, had a great talk with my mom, drove to the city, walked into the house, saw a huge stack of dishes drying in the drying rack, went up to my room, got ready for school, came back down the stairs and actually looked this time... The dishes in the drying rack were ones my other roommate had done. The dishes roommate X (as i'll call him from now on... or maybe it should be roommate R) were still sitting there molding away. Fed up with this, I decide that something had to be done. So on the busride to school i contemplate many things. But after further prayer and time, I decide the only thing that can really be done, is that I'd do his dishes if they hadn't been done by the evening. I knew he had choir this evening so I knew he would be home between 4:30 and 5:00 and then back from choir by 8:00 or so. So 8:00 comes and goes... its 8:30, so I decide to put my plan into action. So, now all the dishes are clean, the counters are clean and I await his response. He had better have some response, if he doesn't, I think that anger me again. I imagine the conversation may go something like this;
R - Did you do my dishes?
S - Yes
R - Well thats stupid, i was going to do them when I got home.
S - I'm sure you were.
He is a fan of insulting my ideas or thing I say with emphasizing how stupid it is and repeating words like stupid and dumb. To be perfectly honest, I would very much like to hit him, but if I did, I would be forever ashamed of myself. Anywho, those are my current planned responses. I guess its partially an attempt at guliting him, which I know won't work because he doesn't care at all. But whatever, at the next house meeting I plan to generate discussion of weekly chores within the house, and I plan to instigate that we do do these weekly chores. If no improvements show in his conduct about the condition of the house and his responsibilities with such. And if at least one of my other roommates back me, I will inform him that he doesn't have to live here if he doesn't wish to take care of his responsibilities. In the event that there is no change, and my other roommates don't wish to back me, I will move out. I do not want to live with someone that doesn't care about the state of the house.
Rant out
You're like a train... Achoo... Achoo :D
The kicker has been the last week and a half. Basically he was "house sitting" for the entire week last week, not a big deal, except he left a huge stack of dishes. Now this in itself isn't a huge deal... I mean, I can definitely see myself forgetting about doing dishes before leaving for a week. The problem starts when he gets back to our house on Saturday. To my knowledge he was home for 2 or 3 hours before leaving again, and in that time did nothing but play videogames and check his facebook.
SUNDAY
When I got back to the city on sunday and found his stack of dishes still lying there, I texted him (slightly rudely) "So why didn't you do your dishes last night?" To which he replied... and oh do his replies always fuel my anger... here's his reply; "Why didn't YOU do the dishes?". This is his typical response when it comes to things concerning keeping the house clean, a sarcastic response and then out of mind. But I wasn't done yet. I realized, after calming myself down and praying for patience (i need a lot of that with this roommate), that the way i worded my inital contact to him would warrant that kind of response. So I followed it up with this ; "Look dude, you know what i was getting at with that text, right? I'm sorry if it came off mean or something, but I think you can see where i'm coming from, its been more than a week.". There was no response to this text. He didn't come home sunday night.
MONDAY
When I get home from school on monday, guess who I see sitting at the tv just playing videogames, (he doesn't work on monday, so presumably had been there for at least 2 or more hours since his girlfriend likely works mondays). We talk for a little bit about nothing important, a simple hey hows it going etc., I refuse to remind him about the dishes. (For a while i would remind him of the things he had to do that he hadn't yet; dishes, cleaning the bathroom. To which he would respond sarcastically and even angrily, then he would rebel and leave it till the next day.) So i went to my room, hoping that sometime during the evening he would take the time to wash the dishes. Alas, I knew my hopes were for nothing when a friend of his came over, so i put my hopes on tuesday.
TUESDAY
Now i knew i would be leaving for Steinbach Tuesday right after school, so I put my hopes on tuesday night that somehow someway he might find the time to do his dishes, so when I came home the dishes would be done and I could stop fretting about it. So tuesday evening was absolutely awesome! The Peace concert rocked my socks off, and then hanging out at dairy queen was excellent! But alas, I decided not to drive back to winnipeg tuesday night and would have to wait until wednesday morning to learn the fate of those dirty dishes.
WEDNESDAY
I got up, had a great talk with my mom, drove to the city, walked into the house, saw a huge stack of dishes drying in the drying rack, went up to my room, got ready for school, came back down the stairs and actually looked this time... The dishes in the drying rack were ones my other roommate had done. The dishes roommate X (as i'll call him from now on... or maybe it should be roommate R) were still sitting there molding away. Fed up with this, I decide that something had to be done. So on the busride to school i contemplate many things. But after further prayer and time, I decide the only thing that can really be done, is that I'd do his dishes if they hadn't been done by the evening. I knew he had choir this evening so I knew he would be home between 4:30 and 5:00 and then back from choir by 8:00 or so. So 8:00 comes and goes... its 8:30, so I decide to put my plan into action. So, now all the dishes are clean, the counters are clean and I await his response. He had better have some response, if he doesn't, I think that anger me again. I imagine the conversation may go something like this;
R - Did you do my dishes?
S - Yes
R - Well thats stupid, i was going to do them when I got home.
S - I'm sure you were.
He is a fan of insulting my ideas or thing I say with emphasizing how stupid it is and repeating words like stupid and dumb. To be perfectly honest, I would very much like to hit him, but if I did, I would be forever ashamed of myself. Anywho, those are my current planned responses. I guess its partially an attempt at guliting him, which I know won't work because he doesn't care at all. But whatever, at the next house meeting I plan to generate discussion of weekly chores within the house, and I plan to instigate that we do do these weekly chores. If no improvements show in his conduct about the condition of the house and his responsibilities with such. And if at least one of my other roommates back me, I will inform him that he doesn't have to live here if he doesn't wish to take care of his responsibilities. In the event that there is no change, and my other roommates don't wish to back me, I will move out. I do not want to live with someone that doesn't care about the state of the house.
Rant out
You're like a train... Achoo... Achoo :D
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Eastman... until we meet again.
Eastman has been a wonderful experience every time I've been a part of it.
I've met many new friends. I've been inspired by the sincerity and passion the kids have for both music and their faith, and I've loved seeing them be so uplifting to one another. I saw none of that high-school bantering, putting each other down. This year's eastmanners were a phenomenal group of people. Interacting with this group of 'kids' (as i like to call them, though they are quite mature) was nothing less than a blessing.
Even though it may be cliche to say it, I think this has been the best group of eastmanners yet, and I hope the trend continues, and that I can play some part in it in future years.
Eastman... until we meet again.
Now for some personal reflection:
As the 2010 eastman choir has finished its 6 week stint, I see many facebook messages with the words 'I miss you' on them. I'm not sure what it is about me, but I've never really felt like I miss someone, now I guess thats not entirely true, but for the most part. For example the eastmanners, I know I won't be seeing many (if any) of them for a while, but I don't think i'm going to 'miss them'. I've always kind of adapted and accepted the parameters of the situation my life is in on any given day, if i'm going to be seeing a fun group of friends (definitely my more favorite days) I accept that that will be coming, but if i don't see them for a while, I'm not sure if i miss them. I realize i'm not explaining this all that well, but maybe I don't know what it means to miss someone. So I shall end with a question,
What does it mean to you, to miss someone?
I've met many new friends. I've been inspired by the sincerity and passion the kids have for both music and their faith, and I've loved seeing them be so uplifting to one another. I saw none of that high-school bantering, putting each other down. This year's eastmanners were a phenomenal group of people. Interacting with this group of 'kids' (as i like to call them, though they are quite mature) was nothing less than a blessing.
Even though it may be cliche to say it, I think this has been the best group of eastmanners yet, and I hope the trend continues, and that I can play some part in it in future years.
Eastman... until we meet again.
Now for some personal reflection:
As the 2010 eastman choir has finished its 6 week stint, I see many facebook messages with the words 'I miss you' on them. I'm not sure what it is about me, but I've never really felt like I miss someone, now I guess thats not entirely true, but for the most part. For example the eastmanners, I know I won't be seeing many (if any) of them for a while, but I don't think i'm going to 'miss them'. I've always kind of adapted and accepted the parameters of the situation my life is in on any given day, if i'm going to be seeing a fun group of friends (definitely my more favorite days) I accept that that will be coming, but if i don't see them for a while, I'm not sure if i miss them. I realize i'm not explaining this all that well, but maybe I don't know what it means to miss someone. So I shall end with a question,
What does it mean to you, to miss someone?
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